Tenth Meditation

I did this meditation Thursday night before I went to sleep but I'm blogging it here now. It was about 10:00 and I was lying supine in my bed, covered in blankets. I put some music in my ears, the same song that I listened to while meditating on Wednesday came up. It was pitch black in my room and I was focusing on the breathing with the dim light of my Ipod next to me. I was feeling the same peaceful and relaxing sensation as I did on Wednesday but this time it was different. It didn't seem as special as it did when I was looking outside at the sunset. I wasn't really filled with much warmth, only a sense of silence.

I had thoughts buzzing through my mind but I let them through just so I can organize them and get a clear look at them. Just concentrating on present moment was what strengthened my mind in the past few days and didn't make me worry or feel anxious about anything. There are definitely noticeable changes. I've been concentrating more in class and thinking outside the box and prioritizing a lot better than I used to, I also have been thinking about what is good for me in the future when forming my schedule for school and schedule for my life. I've also been keeping my mind in the right place. Not letting my anxieties for the future and guilt from the past stop me from achieving what I need to do now. Lately everything has been very manageable for me overall and I plan to keep it that way. Even after I'm done with this school project.