Seventh Meditation

Being sick is really rough, especially when your nose is clogged up with snot and you have aches and pains and just can't focus on anything in front of you. I've been meaning to post more meditation blogs but sickness has been getting the best of me for the past few days. So today I wanted to kick off this sickness and start meditating again.

I sat in my sisters room this time to meditate because her room is very quiet and its not too cold or too hot and her bed is very comfortable. I usually will go in there to work on homework because the desk in her room is really nice and has a lot of space. I slept in this room the night before because I was freezing and got a fever in my other room so this room helped me. It's good that she is away to college too otherwise I would've been yelled at and kicked out haha. Anyways, I knew I would have trouble breathing through my nose so I concentrated on my breathing through my mouth. I sat up in my sister's bed with my legs spread out in front of me and I propped my back against my few pillows because my back had been very sore today and yesterday. My entire body felt like it was aching when I closed my eyes to meditate. I started to feel really sad before I meditated, it was like a feeling of loneliness and pain just echoing in my mind, telling me that I've wasted time being sick and at that moment I started to feel a little worthless and miserable.

I fought that feeling with a new meditation music video and I just let all my problems melt away. I just started to accept the problems I could fix and the ones I couldn't fix in my life and became more calm. The music I was listening to had sounds of a pond and looking at it before I closed my eyes I saw fish swimming around and lush green plants with a statue of a seahorse. That made me feel incredibly peaceful. Throughout the day I was having a very fast heartbeat but this helped me calm down and focus on what was in front of me and that was the music and my breathing. The melancholic feelings melted away and I started to feel at peace with myself. I breathed in and breathed out and started to feel one with the pond and the music. There was this throbbing sensation in the back of my head but it didn't disrupt my concentration.

This Meditation lasted only 10 minutes because I started to cough uncontrollably again. I'm glad I was able to get some meditation in to ease the misery I was feeling earlier. I looked into how sickness is caused spiritually and found that sometimes the body experiences disharmony from what it is used to feeling and when it feels something new that changes the way you act and live, your body starts to change and you get sick.  I'm planning to meditate 2 more times today so I can really try to fight this sickness and overcome the misery that comes with it.