Ninth Meditation

It was 4:50 and I had decided to take a nap before I went back to school to help out for the freshmen orientation but then I couldn't fall asleep. I was too anxious and tight in my body for some reason. So I turned on the computer on my desk to YouTube and started to look for some more meditation music. It was 5:00 so I said I'll just relax for 15 minutes. My desk where I usually do homework on was right by the window and the sunset caught my eye, it was a brilliant, golden yellow ball of energy surrounded by gold outlined clouds, shining on the freshly fallen snow. In my eyes it was one of the most beautiful sunsets I've seen in the winter in a long time.
I took a few minutes to bask in the moment. After that I put my feet on my desk, leaned back, and closed my eyes with my headphones in listening to the soft music. The way the music was made me feel a tinge of sorrow but with a deep sense of security and benevolence. I could feel myself being drawn in to the music more deeper than ever before. In the music there were sounds of ocean waves hitting the sand and loud squawks of the seagulls to enhance the beach effect. The key changes made me think of the sunset's glow that was now imprinted in my mind. I was in deep solitude with my mind. I saw myself in a beach with no one else around, just me basking in my own thoughts.
After about 9 minutes I shut off the music and meditated without the sound so I could pay attention to my body. My body felt very lax and less tense because at that moment I was focusing on the present moment and nothing more. The only thing that mattered to me at that moment was finding peace in my brain and in my heart despite the anxieties that are coming up such as the ACT this saturday and many more problems with schoolwork and the IB program that I need to catch up on. All of those faded about 10 minutes in the meditation. My heartbeat and breathing became really steady and I could maintain a good flow for a long time.
After 15 minutes my dog started to bark at some people outside. I was very frustrated because I was really into the meditation and knew that this was a beautiful moment. My parents were home and that meant they were going to start talking about their day and asking me questions like all good parents do so I stopped the meditation. My mom told me that the car that my dad and her were driving in got stuck in the driveway again due to the ice packed on the driveway. She then told me to look outside and I saw two men helping my dad get the car unstuck by shoveling the ice. My mom told me that they were just walking by and just stopped to help. Its amazing how kind some human beings can be to each other, just seeing that filled up my heart with warmness and gratitude that there are people out there to help. As I started to type up this blog I was looking at the sun, the sun has set lower and the golden yellow has transformed into a warm, hearty red with a tint of purple. As I finish this sentence and look outside, I see the true beauty of nature from the red light the sun gives off and the light blue clouds that hang in the baby blue sky. It was a truly beautiful moment.