First Meditation

I sat in a very quiet room which contained portraits of the hindu gods and had a faint scent of burning incense sticks. With me was a computer and a youtube video of a woman doing a guided meditation for beginners which was about 30-32 minutes long. Before I started the meditation, I sat down in front of the computer cross legged on the floor with a straight posture and away from the lights. As I began the meditation, I tried cleared my thoughts of any internal distractions (anxiety, music in my head, deadlines) and external distractions (parents cooking downstairs and talking). I focused only on the voice of the woman and my breathing. As I slipped deeper and deeper into meditation I forgot to breathe in and out and I was focusing on the imagery around me.

There was this dark empty void with "Pieces" of my thoughts floating, very blurry but they were there floating. I came across this long strand of my thoughts and realized it was a song that had been stuck in my head all day. As I tried to concentrate away from it, it sucked me back in and then I lost all concentration completely. By then I was meditating for about 20 minutes. As I was trying to get back into focus, I had aches in my back and decided to lie down on my back. When I lied down, I felt very light in my head and very relaxed. I realized then I couldn't really continue with the meditation because I was becoming more aware of my surroundings and coming back down to earth.

So my limit right there was 21 minutes. It was interesting that I was able to see some of my thoughts and take a step back from my life and analyze what went on in my head. I probably won't have the same experience again the next time I meditate but I'll definitely have a lot more focus as I continue.